19歳になりたくない [19 sai ni naritakunai] [English translation]

When tomorrow comes

I wonder if something in me will change

I cannot imagine that in any way

As school progressed, I also learned of ways to escape

Laughing at those who committed suicide, clapping at their courage

A camera in one hand and a guitar on my back

Even others' conversations grow dim

The things I let go, because they were all fake

I don't need them, they're not necessary anymore

As I become an adult

I get sick with myself for always dreaming

So I was drowned out by

Pain and anguish which were enough for me to count

The days when I escaped again and again from reality

If I think about it they were without hardships, they were my best friends

Being 18 now, the one thing I can say

Will the memories from those days disappear?

The things I can obtain, I want them all

But, now I feel that I have enough

As I become an adult

I cry when I see things I don't want to see

So I'm also a little afraid of recognizing my true self

Being 18 now, I think of one thing

Why do people celebrate their abating life

I want to become strong, but I also want to be weak

I want to be as I am

The things I can't remember are treasures that I've lost somewhere

And I've let go of the hand I once held before I could notice!

As I become an adult

I cry when I see things I don't want to see

So I'm also a little afraid

Of recognizing my true self