Would you have felt happy if I had eaten up
curry and rice for supper today?
(But) you said with a very frowning face
I didn't have to try.
I wish I (had courage to)
hit back when I'm bullied.
Then you may
show me some more smiles.
I wish I lived alone
and I wouldn't get you into my troubles.
But then I would spend my life
without knowing you.
If I were a liar,
would you scold me?
Many "if"s like these (vaguely) appear
to me when I'm (alone) in my room.
(And) the days of nothing
get cracks
and many "if"s are leaking
from the cracks.
Now I close my eyes,
my ears and start to walk forward.
I can't hear your voice
and can't see your smiles, but it's fine.
I wish
I could erase
only memories I hate
from my head.
If I were an honest person,
would you believe this was my last (lie to you)?
(Then) I'm sure you would show me a smile.
I know it all, don't I?
I've tried to tell you many times,
but my words wouldn't reach you and "that's strange".
I (just) want to come to you (but I can't).
But my knees tremble (as if saying) "You deserve it".
If I were alive,
Someday I would sing you a song I've made for you,
the song I've never sung you
because I feel embarrassed.
I hope the song reaches you someday.
Now I close my eyes,
my ears and start to walk forward.
I can't hear your voice
and can't see your smiles, but it's fine.
Now I close my eyes,
my ears and start to walk forward.
I can't hear your voice
and can't see your smiles, but it's fine.