A Desire to Disappear [Kieteiku nozomi o] lyrics

微かな記憶　残る　幸せなんて

今映った自分にも　嘘をついてる

全ての微笑みは　ただの偽物

孤独憧れるが　どうして辛いの？

Happiness isn’t meant to be nostalgic

And longing for a purpose should bring meaning not feel tragic

Every helping hand reaching out is growing colder

This hell is one I made myself and mine alone to shoulder

静寂頭の中で響いて　永遠に

My heart and soul少しずつ衰えていってる

希望と夢両方壊れる　止まりたい、だけどどうやって？

僕はどのくらい続くのかな

In a flash my senses crash

My mind’s connecting dots from present to past

As a storm it begins to form

The reason I've grazed those pearly gates before

No shape no cure

How much anguish can one endure?

So what the fuck am I supposed to do

When the one day comes where I can't pull through?

Faced with a choice do I run away and hide

or should I give into desire gut myself and rip out what’s inside?

回り回る消えていく　望みを

眠れない夜の思いが苦しめる

生きる意味を探しが、何もない見つけられない

幸福の権利は望めないのか？

逃げらないんだ　逃げらないんだ

My mind is my greatest enemy

生きたいよ　死にたくないよ

深淵が僕を呼んでる

Even in my darkest hour

I won’t let it overpower me