Be

[Verse 1: Rav]

There's something rotten inside me

You told me to be better, ain't honestly likely

You told me to be more, truth is I cannot be

You told me to be smart, kept promising I'm free

You told me to be strong and belong, alarmed me

That otherwise my life won't be long and lively

Do something when I'm gone they don't despise me

You told me don't be wrong

Forgotten that I'm me?

Become something that I'm not

Crushed between the four walls, ceiling and the floor boards

I can't walk nor see forwards, when I talk my speech Mordor

Scrambled thoughts that need order

Not in reach, they're lost in deep waters

Drawing on sleep exhausts my zeal harder

Caught in grief I've honestly authored

[Bridge: Rav]

I don't wanna swim no more, I wanna fly

Looking up at those that do, but I don't identify

I feel lonely when I try, my dreams always seem to die

I keep falling, I'm so sorry, I'm appalling in your eyes

[Chorus: Rav]

Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not

I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot

Yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself

As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled

Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not

I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot

Yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself

As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled

[Verse 2: Rav]

Beep, beep, beep, beep-beep, beep

Beat, I reach for the screen, I need sleep

This sequence is bleak, it reeks, then repeats

Week after week, increasing my fatigue, I feel weak

Tough to conceive I still bleed

When I seem to be proceeding on reflex, deceit

That I could feel relief, that I could seek dreams

Which, seemingly all my experiences deplete

See at the beginning they said that I would be winning

What a beautiful thought, but one I no longer believe in

Belief feels belittling now, I've been beaten

Bested beast, depressed and defeated

So rest in peace to me that felt different

Guess I failed at living, guess I fell and I guess I'm frail

So my failure isn't your fault, just the weather shifted

And my feathers withered, uh

[Chorus: Rav]

Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not

I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot

Hell yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself

As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled

Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not

I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot

Hell yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself

As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled

[Verse 3: Rav]

One lonely night, coming home from work to heavy rain

Thirty feet from the train cross I cross every day

Bar halfway down, I don't hesitate

Close both my eyes and for heaven's sake hit me today

I just want it all to be erased, disappear with the fear and despair

Dissipate, all I've ever done is been afraid

All I've ever done been is been this way

You claim I ain't broken and you liken my wounds

To things that you deal with, with ease, I should too

You make me hate me more than I should hate you

It's always you, you, you

But mama, I'm me

I just wanna be

And I hope you're okay with that