# 11 Paranoid [English translation]

(A cry of agony)

I'm tired of contemplating

I sold my apartment, bought a boat

All my mail goes directly to trash

My dark side peeked out, kindly at first

But I hanged it though I sneered

If someone thinks that someone is enough sometime

Well never, agony is like a spark

My life in a bubble, in a clean resort that is blissfully pointless

I have no goal

My aim just to scrape together valuables till I'm dead

And more knowledge to the head that is becoming demented

I'm going to show the whole prey to a thousand witnesses

If I could just whack a hole to that granite

That "My name is Mikko, and this is how I am"

So I would do that, you don't need to ask me twice

'cause if I don't fall soon, I'm going to jump as an extension of this trapeze

Hang yourself and you'll get disappointed

Don't hang yourself and you'll get disappointed

To hang oneself or not to hang oneself

You'll be disappointed either way

Try something and you'll get disappointed

Don't try anything and you'll get disappointed

Live life to the fucking fullest or die at this spot

You'll be disappointed either way

Disappointed in life

I don't have to prove how tough I am

Because I'm fucking not

But I'm bitter, devious, cunning and surprisingly sadistic

Don't fuck with me, yeah

I have small, sharp scissors made of Teflon in my pockets

And when you are counting sheep in your sheets

Well then I'm howling to that red moon

I can't do anything else, I can't do anything else!

I'm not special or different

But I'm not mature enough to act like it either

It always rains because the clouds follow me

And it thunders but nobody hears it

No one knows the real me

Can I get some help from the Pirate party

I'm fake, false, like an Estonian duplicate

I lied about everything

I lied to everyone about everything

All I said was bullshit

All I was was bullshit

Because everything is bullshit

I'm trying to please those I hate

And those I allegedly hate, I envy

Those who I pretend to envy, I pity

And those I allegedly pity, I fucked

It takes everything when you believe that you are unbelievable

All drained, poor thing, a small sociopath

And a bullet lies at the curve

Someone is killed at the blindside

A year of silence, an hour of noise

One beautiful day I'm going to get killed by this exaggeration

The only real question about life weighs down my head

Is this where I end it all?