Anemone [English translation]

That day you taught me

the meaning of life　how to laugh　how everything should be...

That day you taught me

I turned my eyes away...sorry

(April, 2007. I turned my eyes from this reality, and I tried to disappear by myself.

The impending feeling of throwing up, headache, and the feeling of loss while only time passes by clings on

Without knowing how I made you suffer by shaking my head at your words

I just wrapped my arms around my knees.)

A white bed, white room...unfamiliar window

Peeked in at me...you

Just smiled for me and your cheek slowly gets wet

The arm the pipe is stuck into and the body in pain

I close my eyes a little and look back

I watch you laughing, saying, 「Phew, that was good」 and quietly shake my head

On a sunny day in April that flower

you put there, its meaning I also don't understand

Saying, 「I'll come by again」 you

quietly kissed me

That day you taught me

the meaning of life　how to laugh　how everything should be...

That day you taught me

I turned my eyes away...sorry

While I wished to see you

the hands of the clock let me down

The last mail I received from you

「Don't make me worry so much...」

I must have been hated by you

Never changing the habit of biting my nails...I

One month passes and an unfamiliar call

Time was instilled in nothingness...

On a rainy day in April the call

I sent you, its meaning I don't understand either

Unable to say, 「Come by again」 I

quietly pull the sheets over myself alone

That day you taught me

the meaning of life　how to laugh　how everything should be...

That day your mama said

「She has fallen asleep」

That day you taught me

the meaning of life　how to laugh　how everything should be...

That day you taught me

I turned my eyes away...

That day you taught me

About myself　about family　about how things will be from now on

That day you taught me

I turned my eyes away...

In front of the stone you've fallen asleep under

I stood for as long as I could

The flowers I offer for you are those flowers

from that day laden with sarcasm...

「I can meet you again right?」

(A little over 5 years have passed since then, and I am still living

The meaning of life, the meaning of existence...still seems like I won't understand any time soon

However, living as I am now might just turn into that 「meaning」, can't it?

I've come to be able to think like so.

Have I been able to live as you did until today?

Plenty of sarcasm for you...)