They were just friends, but things turned out in such a way that they
both realized that they meant something important
to each other, more than just a friend.
Probably, everyone experienced it.
They were friends for so long, she knew him better
than anyone else, just like he knew her.
They understood each other with half of a word, with a glance, he could figure out the reason for her anger.
Happiness is close - it is when you enjoy her moods,
And when you write letters in SMSs,
when there are no money for flowers and you surprise her
with the daffodils you picked up in the park.
Everything went down in flames in the middle of May,
He wrote her an SMS: "I have found someone else.
I'm leaving for ever, don't wait for me, baby,
I don't love you, forgive me that it turned out like this."
She nervously banged the door of his apartment,
But no one answered there,
On the phone, a gentle voice, kind of rudely
Says, for the hundredth time "the subscriber is not accessible".
The mutual acquaintances did not know anything,
and haven't even heard about his new love.
The feet were akin, from walking to all the doorsteps,
No one at the university knew anything, or at work,
They said he quit, flew away, apparently.
Someone said - to America, someone - to Europe.
First, he gave her freedom, then cornered her in a dead end
Was all this suffering worth the one second happiness?
She faded, closed up, started hating him
With all her heart. Nervous breakdown, clinic,
Where she stayed for a very long time without any visitors,
She would not let her friends or her parents come close to her.
Time is passing, quietly taking into the past
All that we managed to go through and to sum up.
Years have passed, she met another man,
And he helped her to get on her feet, to be herself.
With his arrival, her life changed completely,
Parents' blessing with God's grace...
They got married, loudly, the whole town danced
At their wedding. It was truly great
To live without the one about whom she knew nothing.
The pain has come to an end, it was a blank page,
And how many more years have passed,
She forgave him, let God judge him,
She didn't even think about the possibility of him showing up
On her doorstep, one day
Talking to him would be uninteresting for her
And it seems that it's time to end this song, but...
Her daughter was around five years old,
When an envelope came. Guess from who?
From him, yes. And this was almost ten years later...
Ironically she thought: "He decided to remember"
Entertained, she began reading, but soon
Her smile disappeared from her face,
She fell, squeezing the letter in her hands,
In it, he wrote to her:
"Hello, dear! If you are reading these lines,
I''m proud of you. Ten years ago, I was unable to tell you,
to your face, that what I decided to write.
I left quietly, in the end saying something about
Falling in love with another woman... So stupid.
I wrote this letter the same summer
And asked for it to be given to you
When there will be no room for me in your life,
When you'll forget,
Sometime in the future, when you will be finally happy.
I lied to you and I'm not looking for an excuse,
It's just the way fate decided everything for me.
And you know, the hardest was to sit in my apartment,"
Hearing your quiet weeping behind the door,
Believe me, I am crying now at night just like I cried back then.
Here is what happened:
The doctors said that I have a brain tumor.
I had a couple of months left, I'm serious.
I did not leave, I did not fall in love with another one,
Could I have fallen out of love with you, my closest?
Could I have forgotten your smile, your embraces?
Forgive me for not putting you in a white dress.
I hope that someone else will do it.
Everything was good, we just had bad luck.
I wish you happiness and I probably would have been unable to die in your arms,
Because you would have been unable to be with another man, you would have lived in the past.
Forgive me for lying to you, it was better for you this way -
Once my other half, just know that I truly loved you.
And I still love you know, while I'm taking my last breath.
Be in peace."